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Dream (weight journal)

criscollrj

Hi everyone – I had a strange dream last night that was so real – first I dreamt I was really in shape and eating well and had lost a lot of weight. Then in the dream I realized I was asleep, but determined to get back to getting myself in shape and thinner. Then I think the dream switched to something else and later on I woke up and didn’t even remember that part of the dream.

Just sitting here though I remembered it again and was like, wow, I really need to get back on the plan. I’m going to try and start today.  I’ll have to post this in my diet journal, and I really need to find more communities to put that in as the one it’s in is hardly travelled.

I have been so tired and overwhelmed lately, maybe changing my health will help me. 

I am having fun with all the activities we’re doing right now for end of the year for all three kids in school, but boy is it busy!  I’m getting discouraged with how behind I’m getting on housework!

Oh well, this too shall pass, right?  then the kids will be home for the summer and I won’t get anything done then either ;P

Love, d

colleen, Ryan, weight

spring

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I am feeling ready to change my background soon — I may dabble in it yet today.

I did update my weight site (weighdownagain is my user name for that) – http://www.livejournal.com/users/weighdownagain/ — I am on the road again – 3rd day of foodmover (richard simmons). I hope for success!!!

We kept colleen in her regular school, didn’t move her. She is doing tremendous in her trumpet and very well in school.

We don’t have word yet on next step for Ryan – I do believe it’s hearing aids but his appt with ENT is April 20.

That’s about it for now…

 

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A new start!

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Post from the Weight journal —

 

I am finally back on track (I HOPE!). I started Foodmover for sure on Friday (after 2-3 half-starts and also trying to figure out WHICH diet to do). It is Richard Simmons’ plan and one I have done before, and I have done Richard’s plans often dating back to Deal-A-Meal and the Never-Say-Diet plan of the early 80’s. I have begun walking again too, and hope to add in strength training and aerobic tapes too.

After South Beach last year (a very good plan too, but one I just can’t focus on right now due to all that’s going on my life) on which I lost 18 pounds, I have gained back 13 pounds. Thank goodness the whole amount isn’t back on. I’ve been in denial about why my 16’s don’t fit (this is a SMALL 16, oh, and THIS one is a small 16, okay, how can they ALL be now SMALL 16’S?) UGH, you get the picture. I have ballooned back up into 18’s, trying to wear 16s, and resorting to sweat pants. So, give me a month, hopefully I can be back in 16’s again. I hope… I can’t afford to buy new clothes!

184.5-182-125.

(old progress had been last summer — 187-169-125.)

I’ll get there….

health, Uncategorized, weight

My new journal!

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2020 – so this was a diet page I made at I believe LiveJournal (https://weighdownagain.livejournal.com/) around 2006 while this blog also was still at LiveJournal.  I eventually merged them and just tagged the weight journals with the appropriate category, but this was the beginning of it… I also have an earlier weight journal at my old pre-blog site, here, that goes from around 1999-2005 – http://www.criscollrj.com/site%20files/Weight%20Journal.html

I finally have it set up the way I want with the background picture! Now I need to find some readers and blog my weight loss like I hope to!

Some of my history is at my home page on my diet page (the second link, above, as this link is no longer valid). I plan to journal more here and hopefully meet a lot of great people in the meantime. This site is also interesting, the one I kept back in the late nineties.  (2020 update — https://www.oocities.org/dorifam/food.html).  Happy there are still links viewable from the “oocities” Geocities archive!!!

I started dieting on and off at the age of 10. I am now 40, so a 30 year history!

but now I must go, 3 year old is crabby!

add me if you’d like!

dori

please check out my home page, https://criscollrj.com

asperger's, autism, Ryan, sleep, speech delay, weight, work

Sunny Sunday

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You’re Manny! (Manuela) You are clingy, yet cute.
Childish, yet can have some amazing pearls of
wisdom. You are the Sam to Emma’s Frodo. Cheer
up about Craig, dear. There are plenty more
boys who dig it when you call your stuffed
animals weird names!

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I love Degrassi – can’t wait for new season!  (watch on the “N” on our new digital cable which I don’t want to get rid of with our “broke-ness” now….)

Doing great, though I feel bad I missed church.  Chris fell asleep just moments before we left!  He is doing very well – naps every day still (a little earlier than expected today – usually he’s nodding off a bit at church which is a GOOD thing).  So next week I’ll give him the pill a little later.

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autism, college, medications, music, Pans/Pandas, residency, sleep, waiver placement lists, waivers, weight

another old copied post…. things are not good :(

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User: dori

Comments: feel like the straw that broke the camel’s back just happened – my aide just called and asked if I thought Chris would hit her today how do i know… – I said I didn’t know, he’s mostly hitting himself, but that he had hit me some especially on Saturday. She said she’s not coming today and that she’s going to call her office and explain how much he’s hitting her (he did hit her a lot on Thursday – she had a sore arm from it) and whether they still want her to come back – what do you think will happen?

2020 – yet another pans/pandas note… is that what this aggression was from??

I told Rog if I don’t have an aide I think we will have to have him go live somewhere else. We may do it this week. I’m so depressed. I can’t do this with no help. My mom did help me yesterday but he was hitting her and pushing her and she’s only 5’4″ and about 105 pounds so she can’t take too much -she’s also 61. My MIL isn’t even coming around to watch him anymore really – she’s pretty sick right now.

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autism, college, deafness, medications, organizing, Pans/Pandas, relocation, relocation North Carolina, residency, sleep, weight, work

a little update finally —

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speak and spell
You’re a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just
because you were disguised as a toy doesn’t
mean you weren’t educational, you sneaky
bastard.

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it is a lazy Sunday and I have SO much cleaning to do.

Last I wrote Chris was having a VERY VERY VERY bad time. We had an awful 4 months – February – sinus infections, ear infections with ear injury from hitting; March, 2 ear surgeries, missed most of the whole month off of school, plus drug reaction to Seroquel/Risperdol and withdrawal; April, entire month, I believe, from school, just about (he may have gone a week or so), had 1-2 more sinus infections; May, Tonsillectomy/Adenoidectomy, and finally had to start more meds as he was still being aggressive, self-injurious, and very very upset and not sleeping at all hardly (like 3-4 hours every few days is all); and June started horribly as well but FINALLY last 3-4 days his new meds (Tenex) is kicking in and he’s sleeping a little more and is seeming happier. FINALLY.

(2020 pans/pandas)

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Pans/Pandas, sleep, weight

Up all night…

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Seems like it. Actually Chris has quieted down so I hope to go to sleep SOON. I was up late last night with him and then overslept this morning and he missed his bus. Ended up taking him to the dr. – another sinus infection. It goes together – the sleeplessness and the sinus infections. We are so weary – we hope this new thing works – giving him antibiotics for 4 weeks instead of 2.

For some reason at night I’ve been reading about anorexia. I think I stumbled across something surfing Live Journal sites (think that’s where it was?) and then just started reading about it. It’s amazing what the mind can do in a person. I never had anorexia or bulimia but did get to the bingeing state. I always would binge before I started diets, ever since I was like 10 years old. I would pick a date to start dieting and right before it I’d eat huge quantities to “get it out of my system.” I have done this to this day.

In ’99 I joined a diet system called “Weigh Down” and I followed through my pregnancy and nursing as well. It really changed my outlook a lot. It is based on just eating when hungry and stopping before full. However, after that I kind of drifted away from it (as the program developed some spiritual inconsistencies and a lot of churches dropped the plan, and I got disappointed in the whole thing and just didn’t do it anymore). I really got slowly but steadily back into the diet and then binge thing. So Jan. 20 I started following the basic hunger/fullness principles again and am down 4 pounds. It is so liberating – I can eat what I want, as long as I’m hungry, and I stop when I feel satisfied (not full!) and wait for hunger to eat again. And it’s funny, after reading these anorexia/bulimia sites, I can see where a plan like this would be a help to those people too after they have maybe talked to someone about their low self esteem issues.

I think I’m actually going to attempt to go to bed… hopefully!

dori

Edit, Feb. 2020.  As I am rereading this blog and have my Pans/Pandas suspicions for Ryan, I note this about Chris having this sinus infection, and possibly having Pans (he had a psychiatric breakdown shortly after this).  The clues you see years later….